ready, set, don't go

fair warning: i will probably start to cry halfway through this post.
there haven't been any new posts lately because 1) i got deathly ill last tuesday (pretty sure it was west nile virus) and then 2) we have been running around like crazy trying to get things packed for georgia.
we rented a pod to put the majority of my world possessions in and my shoes are now on the trek across the country. i will be seeing them again in a little over a week.
i leave on sunday morning so this week is filled with a lot of last minute plans with friends and sad goodbyes. the first was today when i said goodbye to cody. my last words to him: don't kill anyone and don't get killed. his last words to me: you suck. i say that this exchange pretty much sums up our relationship though he says it doesn't. i'm going to miss everyone at the pharmacy like mad. i really feel like i have been adopted into this really weird but awesome family. i don't think they'll ever understand how much i appreciate them.
the hardest goodbyes will be with my real family but luckily those will be put off for another 2 weeks. unfortunately, this means 2 weeks of anticipating saying goodbye which is almost as hard. especially when my mom will burst into tears at random moments. it would be funny how she pretends to be irritated with me only to breakdown crying if it wasn't so sad and heartbreaking. it will be hard for a little while not to have my mom hovering over me and protecting me like she's always done but it will be good for me, i know.
aaaaaand here come the tears. luckily i've just about said everything i've wanted to say. the title of this blog post comes from a billy ray cyrus song (yes, i do realize it's BILLY RAY but it actually is an amazing song that makes me cry every time i hear it). anyway, i'll share it so all of you can cry, too. then i won't feel so lame.